I watched this brilliant TED talk on procrastination the other day it really hit a nerve.
I can focus on exciting creative projects, in fact, they often become all consuming but I find it almost impossible to focus on the day to day things like making sure the washing is done, phoning my friends and planning my next year 6 art lesson.
I wonder if this is linked to the fact I’m not a completer / finisher?
Focus is something I’ve included on my new year personal manifesto for a couple of years. This year I put it near the top with; write, design & curate… things I want to make sure I do this year. But what is it I’m really trying to focus on? right now, it’s working out what i’m supposed to be doing with my life – the dream, the big picture, the call, the vocation or whatever you want to call it…
Deep down I know it’s to support and encourage creativity, particularly in relation to theatre and church but it’s so hard to focus on making that happen when you need enough money coming in to pay the rent and feed your kids. I waste inordinate amounts of time scrolling through jobs on the internet when I know that’s not going to provide the solution I’m looking for. Something in my brain says that it would be better to go for the easy option, find a job in a creative industry somewhere and tow the line BUT that’s not what I really want and I need to FOCUS on getting there. I need to knuckle down.
FOCUS means doing the best where you are on the way to where you’re going and I’m not sure I’m getting that right either. FOCUS means staying on track to find opportunities that will actually help you. FOCUS means being patient. FOCUS means… what does it mean to you?
Writing this is part of my process, my promise to myself that I will stop wasting time and FOCUS so I can get to where I want to be.
Thanks for being part of the journey.